Indistinct Mumblings of an Unsound Mind

I upset Kayla today. I was supposed to have physical therapy today, but it was cut short. Kayla was having an issue watching the kids, and I over-reacted. Typical me.

The rest of the day was spent with her out, staying away from me. I really end up hating myself when my mouth gets away from me. Not because I yell, but because the things that I say are the most harsh, cruel, things that stick with you. They’re based in truth, but it’s twisted ┬áso far that all it does is damage. You try to ignore it and the hateful, anger-filled words come back to you.

They are things that cannot be unsaid.

So, yesterday was full of hallucinatory fun. Geoff, I hate him. Constantly reminding me of my downfalls and character flaws. There’s no escape from him. All I could do after my kids left was cry in the bedroom closet. It’s too crowded in there for him to stand with me, but I had the joy of listening to him through the door.

Last night, I did get to go see Killa, though. We had a good time. Watched Hellboy, talked a bit, then went out to eat at Oregano’s. She’s hell-bent on taking me to a bar sometime soon. I miss her. I am hopeful that when we move at the end of the week I’ll be able to spend more time with her.

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