Indistinct Mumblings of an Unsound Mind

What do you do when the going gets rough?

Me? I try to hold things together. The world will be coming down around me, sometimes metaphorically and sometimes physically; but I always try to keep it together. I’m used to being that supportive pillar of rock. That’s been my role for so long, for so many people.  To stand and give them a shoulder to lean on, a hand up, or a place to belong.

But how to approach those intense moments when even I cannot stand on my own? Why is it that when I need that same help, those people I love and help to care for disappear?

My entire life has been based in servitude of those around me. I am one of the few people on this planet who has actually given up the shirt off my back for someone that needs it more than I do. Money, food, transportation, and even opening up my own house are all things I wouldn’t hesitate to do for a perfect stranger in legitimate need.

I was raised to care for all people, understanding that people would care back in my time of need. Last night was a cold wake-up call from reality. All people do is take. Take, Take, Take.

People consume. We are the monsters – Dragons in a den, hoarding everything: Wealth, Power, Love, and anything else we can get our hands on. I was a fool to try and help other people; even more foolish to care for anyone but myself.

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